Today I had the overwhelming desire to act exactly in accordance to how I felt, in any given moment.
If I didn’t feel like making small talk in the kitchen with the King Dick of our IT department, I made coffee silently and left.
If I didn’t think a joke was funny, I didn’t offer a courtesy laugh.
If I felt like yelling the f word as loud as I could in the driver’s seat of my car, I shouted it at the dome light.
If I didn’t feel like making a huge deal of the office birthday belonging to that of my waning friend, I didn’t dote and shower her with gifts.
But when I later got the vibe that she was pissed at me for my lack of interest, I caved and sent her an eCard. It was a simple, static design that read:
“Happy Birthday to someone I can tolerate.”
Based on her lack of response as of 10p, I’m guessing the selection didn’t go over well. So I guess it’s back to doing things I don’t feel like tomorrow.